Saturday, 19 September 2015

Head..

I am waiting right now. Yes waiting to wish someone happy birthday, the state of my mind being, I am in a dilemma to wish her or not, still I don’t want to take any chances. So HER in the story is a friend that has happened to become really special. I really do a lot of talking with her. From a reference of those talking, I am realizing the fact that I should wish her tonight when the clock really says, “F**k you! It’s time for some action”. Now here I am, lost, wondering what to do right now?? When I look at the future (being after an hour) it will be after a long wait of dizziness when you call her, yet trying to be anxious because it is her birthday after all. You are doubtful if she will reply to you in a happy manner, because everything you have been trying to manage for her, to do is just finding its way into the sink lately. The area of concern lies whether or not to wait anymore and try to wish her at the time or just keep it simple the day that follows after the sun arises! The fact being it is unpredictable if she will be happy enough to take my wish or will be busy talking to someone else. It is quite simple though nobody expects me on the day they are happy.

See I am this cursed being on the earth whom people miserably remember the time their life is fucked up. I have no choice attending to them with all I have. It has become my thing lately, the ultimate cause of my existence. Though I frame it quite in a filthy way, it will seem a lot better when you realize that it is a great gift if you are able to make someone happy. When people feel deeply agitated with their life’ problem and seek some happiness if you are the provider it will give you kind of a Well Done pat on your back.

Birthdays, these are never quite the days for me. Truly nobody gives a shit about mine; you had always been asking what a normal person will ask for his birthday, a CAKE. Yes, a f**king good looking cake, there is no interest in eating that pile of s***, just that someone has paid off some money to make someone write patiently your name on it very attractively.  Waiting for your knife to cut it in little pieces for yourself and others, while they yell your name out loud to make you embarrassed, happy, top of the world for just a day in the world where nobody cares, they just pretend to care for you for a little while so that you can be happy. After all it is the day you have gotten into this world. Each time I feel, I never did that! Not even a single time I remember to have seen my name made with colored icing sugar. The days of school passed, the college went away, NEVER.
I am really getting bored to do anything right now but to wait for this day to end and to see how the following day comes to me as.

NabaM

Thursday, 17 September 2015

About Me

Hi,
 I am an ananymous character, kind of a person a bit different from the rest of the world. I always encounter things which eats up my mind, may be those things hold no importance to any other people. But the mind whose owner is me, it surely goes through a lot of thinking. The level of thinking the mind possess would be made clear in due course of time.
The sole purpose of my writing this blog is to give a little rest to my mind from picturizing stuff and getting lost in the never ending maze of thoughts and to reach at a point where it will seem to be actually solved. I was never less proud of my mind, its the mind that thinks in its ways to reach at the ultimate end point, or you never know I may even end myself abruptly. Instead of getting lost into the daydreaming I would write everything out clear. Just flow with the adventures...
Everyone's
NabaM